Life In Mono
s t a r m | s t August 17th, 2008
Something is wrong with my lb account - all my edit buttons and stuff are gone. I can’t put in photos or do more complicated edits to my entries.
Anyway that is only part of the reason why I’ve not been blogging much.
I guess I’ve come to the point where I’m no longer comfortable about revealing things.and.people close to my heart online, and thoughts.and.words I really want to say but not here for everyone to see / pick on / draw conclusions yadda yadda. A friend - the one known as The Nemesis in the bar - recently commented [with some regret *amused*] that it is difficult to aggravate me online because I seldom touch on very personal stuff despite my writings on my blog, on plurk and other online places people that can reach me on. Untouchable. How perceptive of him.
There also things moving along in my life which are uncertain and unconfirmed, which make it hard for me to write about, however much I want to do so. Happy things should be shared, yet I hesitate to.. for now. Do.not.want.to.jinx.stuff.
Some things happening with some people from the bar makes me feeling not just a little discomfited. I’m not close to them two, that gal and the other gal, but I find myself worrying for them; not so much for the former but more for the latter. Of course the worries are based on conjecture, putting bits and pieces together, and kinda unfounded, but I can’t help worrying for them nonetheless. It is not in my place to ask after them though, nor ‘push’ my kaypohness in, so I guess things have to remain as they are.
One word for another reason of my bloglessness: work.
I have never felt so ‘dry’ about blogging before. I no longer have anything to write about. Or maybe I have way too many things to write but do not know how to write. Or maybe I know how to write them but do not want to reveal. Or maybe I want to reveal but am bound by friendship and links and the past to do it. Or maybe I just don’t have the capability nor the time anymore.
So.. til the next time, people… whenever I’m comfy..




