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s t a r m | s t May 15th, 2006

From SassyJan

I AM: everything that I am, and everything that I am not.
I WANT: peace within myself.
I WISH: [at this moment] I have a lot of money [cmon, you too] and more time.
I HATE: uncertainties of any kind.
I MISS: strolling along melbourne streets in the winter air and returning to the apartment to wonderful roommates and trashy tv shows.
I FEAR: love, and hatred.
I HEAR: God speaking to me sometimes.
I WONDER: how my future will map out.
I REGRET: once loving two people who shouldn’t be loved by me.
I AM NOT: as nice and giving now as I used to be in the past.
I DANCE: EDT, salsa, and to club music.
I SING: softly and tunelessly.
I CRY: a lot. period.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: how you think me to be.
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: signs for my HI friends.
I WRITE: to remember, to vent, to hide, to reveal.
I CONFUSE: myself all the time.
I NEED: to retain an untouched childlike core to keep myself sane in this crazy world.
I SHOULD: to be more confident.
I START: by stumbling forward.
I FINISH: when I finally realise it is time to.
I LOVE: you.
I REMEMBER: selectively.

I tag: all the xtomic people who read this.

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s t a r m | s t March 16th, 2006

Days go by so fast I find myself blogging about inconsequential stuff [because they're easier to blog about] and delaying posts about thoughts and happenings closer to my heart.

This is taken from MOB [too lazy to link =P]. It’s an edited version because the original is just too long.

What curse word do you use the most?
Dammit.
Do you own an iPod?
A pink mini, it was a christmas pressie.
What was the last movie you watched?
Brokeback Mountain, with a very traumatized TMM. Hur hur.
If you won the lottery, what’s the first thing you would buy?
An A9937 yanagisawa alto saxophone or a white baby grand [which I'll have nowhere to put oops].
Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
Only under extremely extreme situations.
What CD is currently in your CD player?
CD player? But it’s iTunes and iPod era now.
Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
Chocolate hee.
Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Yes.
When was the last time someone hit on you?
No telling. =)
Can you whistle?
Nooooooooooooo… *sulk*
What is your favorite ride at an amusement park?
The roller coaster. Ironically, I’m an acrophobe.
Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Of course. That’s life.
Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Yes. Carebears countdown, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!
Are you shy around the opposite sex?
Err yes, but I manage to mask it most of the times, I think.
What is your biggest regret?
Hmm.. 2 things come to mind immediately but I ain’t telling here.
When was the last time you laughed so hard your sides hurt?
I don’t remember when was the last time I laughed that hard. *brood*
What movie do you know every line to?
Can I change it to books? I’m good with books.
When was your last plane ride?
Jan this year with Rui mei.
Do you read for fun?
Everyday, all the time.
Can you speak any languages other than English?
Half-past six mandarin. Erm, is using sign speaking?
What color is your bedroom painted?
Lavender and white.
Have you ever cried in public?
Yes…
Do you have a desktop computer or a laptop?
A trusty 4 year old laptop.
Which do you make: wishes or plans?
Wishes, then plans.
Do you shower on a daily basis?
Yes lah!
Do you believe that the guy should pay on the first date?
Dutch. But the guy should never make the girl pay everything on the first date. Never. Never ever. I’m old school this way, nevermind gender equality.
What do you like to snack on at the movie theatres?
Nachos with cheese.
Who was your favorite teacher?
Tough one. I would choose Mr Low I guess, cos we can tease him, bully him, traumatise him, and get away with it all the time. And I hope he is not reading this.
Would you ever date someone covered in tattoos?
One or two is fine but not the entire body.
What was your favorite class in high school?
High school? *thinks* Maths class [although I detest maths to the core] because the teacher’s fun and funny.
What personality trait is a must-have in the opposite sex?
Faithfulness – in all sense of the word. I said I’m old school, yeah.
Have you ever been attracted to someone physically unattractive?
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, they are all attractive to me.
When was the last time you slept on the floor?
I fell asleep on the floor a couple of weeks back when I was really really exhausted and stressed.
What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
Butterscotch Schnapps yay!
Does your closest Starbucks have a drive-thru?
Noo! There isn’t even a Starbucks outlet anywhere close to home. It’s so tragic, it is. And how come there is a Starbucks question? Ha…
Do you like your living arrangements?
Yes, my room is my sanctuary.
How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
8 hours, which I don’t often get.
What was the last thing that has scared you?
Uncertainty.
Did you ever get in trouble for talking in class?
No real trouble, my teachers are cool. Besides, they won’t scold me.
Do you pay attention to calories on the back of packages?
Ahem no.
How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
21.
Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
I am, but my grammar sucks.
Do you believe in life on other planets?
Of course! The little prince on his B612.
Who was the last person to piss you off?
Haha. Miss Ho knows the answer to this, yah.
Do you believe that God has a gender?
Yeah, it’s Him.
Do you get along better with the same or opposite sex?
I really don’t know the answer to this question.
How did your parents pick your name?
Hmm, need to ask them this.
What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
Pessimistic me: Why is life never easy? *cry*
Optimistic me: Tomorrow will be a better day. *cry*
Do you sleep on your side, tummy, or back?
Side, and back.
What character from a movie most reminds you of yourself?
Cannot think of any from the top of my head, but am thinking of those characters who always lose in love. Laughs.
What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
It is not a matter of consequence to me.
Do you enjoy giving hugs?
Yes, especially to my close friends. But not to people if I feel they may get the wrong idea.
Do you own a digital camera?
Yes, it was a pressie. But I think it’s dying on me. =(
If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?
Scared. I’ll withdraw, become cold or run away.
What celebrities have you been compared to?
A couple of local ones, but I cannot remember who. Why can’t I remember so many things? I’m losing my memory.
Who is your favorite Star Wars character?
R2D2! So cuteee!
Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call but never do?
Sometimes, depending on who it is.
What books, if any, have made you cry?
Tuesday with Morrie, The Time Traveler’s Wife, One For My Baby
Do you think you’re attractive?
Nopie.
What are you allergic to?
Some drugs, crabmeat, dust, and mean horrible people.
Are you a jealous person?
I am, yes, I cannot deny this.
What’s your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
Empty and lonely, and impossible for me.
Do you enjoy driving?
Can I try driving without a license, can I can I can I?
Have you ever had the “falling” dream?
Several times, and I’ll see a bright flash of light at the end of the dream just before I wake up with a start. =/
Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
Sometimes, especially on Fridays.
If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
Joshua, Jonathan, Joaquim, Ashton, anything ‘A’ or ‘J’

Ok, this is darn long still.

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s t a r m | s t March 4th, 2006

Answers so far.

70% of people agree that starmist06 is sentimental

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Warm?? Patient?! Silly?!? Why am I silly? =(
For the rest who reads my blog, do this~ [even if you don't know me all that well =P] Maybe it can help me understand myself better. It’s ok, I promise I won’t bite.

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s t a r m | s t February 19th, 2006

http://kevan.org/johari?name=starmist06

Someone took my nickname, leaving me to sign up with an extended one? Bleah. Do this if you consider yourself my friend [yes, blatant blackmail here].

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s t a r m | s t January 23rd, 2006

Since I’ve been tagged by the King of Kings, here goes.

Four jobs you’ve had in your life
All temp jobs, yeah.
administrative assistant
sign language terp
human resource assistant
customer service personnel

Four movies you could watch over and over
Memoirs of a Geisha
Moulin Rouge
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Tempting Hearts

Four TV shows you love(ed) to watch
F.r.i.e.n.d.s
Desperate Housewives
Buffy
Whose Line Is It Anyway [though I usually cannot stay awake by the time it is aired]

Four places you’ve lived
Telok Blangah
Jurong
Melbourne
[Insert future place here]

Four places you’ve been on vacation to
Indonesia
Malaysia
Australia
Thailand

Four places you’d rather be
Melbournemelbournemelbournemelbourne
Switzerland
France
Italy

Four of your favourite foods
Fried Hokkien Mee
Cheesecake
Aglio olio pasta
Salmon Sashimi

Four websites you visit daily
All blogs
z’s
kenny’s
dom’s
xx’s

Four tagged
Sister
Hina
Angel
Natalie

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s t a r m | s t September 19th, 2005

Read her entry two nights back, and then hers this morning, and it kinda struck a chord in me. Was wondering if I should do this cos I’ll be leaving myself open and vulnerable, but that’s kinda ironic since I have been writing down some of my most personal thoughts here.

I’m that girl who once believed in fairy tales and that for every person who love, she/he will be loved in return. who, because of that belief, have gave her all to the people she love. who never ran out of love, never ran out of hope, never ran out of faith, until a few months ago.

I’m that girl who took love and life so seriously since young that friends had to tell her to stop growing up too fast and to ‘lighten up’. who didn’t care one bit about all the shopping and clothes and shoes that was discussed, but was more interested in literature, psychology and law.

I’m that girl who wanted to please the world, wanted to help the world, and didn’t want anyone to think badly of her, but found out that there are some things in life which are just impossible to do.

I’m that girl who you sought when you had trouble with your girlfriends. who you have cried in her arms because your one true love, her friend, broke your heart time and again. who was so close to you we created gossip for a year when, in fact, there was really nothing. who you confided into when your girl threw unreasonable tantrums at you. who you hugged and danced with because there was noone else to hug and dance with. who you found comfort in when your relationship was in the red. who you wanted to play around with cos she was an easy target. who you strung along with another because you want to have it all.

I’m that girl you kissed in the shadows of the night. who you held close while storms raged outside. who you whispered words of love with the music engulfing us. who you secretly teased and flirted with in the presence of friends who remained oblivious. who you promised a world of tomorrows.

I’m that girl who took three long years to get over you.

I’m that girl who sobbed uncontrollably in your car because everything in her life was going wrong. who fell into an exhausted sleep on your shoulder after staying awake the entire night. I’m that girl who woke up in the dead of the night, missing you terribly. who held your hand when you silently demanded for mine.

I’m that girl who never believed in soulmates, other halves, til you came along… and then you left.

I’m the girl who held back her tears when you flew to the other side of the world. who broke down alone in the ladies only after she took them home. I’m the girl who dreams of you almost every night and wakes up crying because you’re no longer here, in every sense of the word. who wishes to say so many things but yet am unable to do so.

I’m that girl whose heart you have broken.

I’m that girl who was that close to death because of a broken heart.

I’m that girl who you ‘fell in love’ with because you saw in her what you lost in yourself. because you were looking to forget and she just happened to be there. because you were in darkness and she brought you light. because you were in the in-between of your journey and she appeared in your tracks. I’m that in-between girl.

I’m the girl who looks up at the sky at every chance she could to seek light and warmth from all the stars that hung in the night. who used to think that love conquers all, got crippled by it and stopped believing it. who tried to deny being a hopeless romantic but failed miserably. who wants to appear hard, tough and strong when the truth is, she really need someone here beside her.

I’m the girl who got so bruised and battered and disillusioned by love, she daren’t give it another chance anymore. who don’t believe love exist for her anymore. who don’t believe love exist at all.

Yeah, I’m that girl and more. Do you know me?

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s t a r m | s t June 26th, 2005

I’m just too bored I guess.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. cannot be revealed here
2. cannot be revealed here
3. cannot be revealed here

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. starm|st
2. angelmist
3. yuki - it means snow [in reference to my chinese name]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. slimness
3. hands

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. bad skin
2. teeth
3. feet

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. chinese
2. canadian
3. whatever

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the way the world works
2. heartbreak
3. the unknown [including the supernatural]

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. face-wash
2. shampoo
3. tissue

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. my heart on my sleeve
2. bruises from a fall
3. tee-shirt [finally, a proper answer!]

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS: (for now)
1. take that!
2. s.e.n.s
3. nil

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (for now)
1. almost here by delta goodrem and brian mcfadden
2. love, me by colin raye
3. angels brought me here by guy sebastian

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. faithfulness
2. love - of course there gotta be this
3. open communication - honesty, openness and all that

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT YOU TAKE NOTE OF:
1. eyes
2. masculinity
3. can I cheat and say ‘voice’?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. reading
2. thinking
3. song-signing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. be happy
2. be happy
3. sleep soundly

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. artist
2. lawyer
3. interior designer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. australia [I'm so vague]
2. the states [even more vague]
3. europe [still as vague]

THREE KID’S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. anything with ‘en’ eg: en-xi
2. guy names starting with ‘J’
3. gal names starting with ‘A’

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. travel around the world
2. tell my loved ones that I love them
3. I don’t know - get that white baby grand and the coverted yanagisawa alto?

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. the way I shop - have something in mind, find it, buy it, get all happy and satisfied.
2. interest in fast cars
3. nil

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. think and brood too much
2. too emotional
3. soft-spoken

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1) hideaki takizawa
2) bae yong joon
3) david boreanaz

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s t a r m | s t June 21st, 2005

How true is it?

Thinks far with vision[?] Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Have lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating. Tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke[?] Good debating skills[?] Talkative[?] Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends[?] Abiding. Able to show character[?] Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up[?] Easily bored. Fussy[?] Seldom shows emotions[?] Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious[?] Executive[?] Stubborn.

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s t a r m | s t October 9th, 2004

You are purple. What a romantic person you are. You’re sentimental and forward-looking (those are opposites). You’re sophisticated and refined — with a refine taste for chocolates and wine (yum…). Tempermental and moody, you let people know when you’re angry. But other times, you just sit and sulk. Alone. When around people, you’re a generous person with insatiable needs. You’re a starving artist basically. You enjoy getting into debates over politics and religion with people of the same intelligence as you. But you know they can never convince you otherwise, you stubborn person, you. As the unique person you are (not to mention just a tad bit eccentric), you’re well-liked by either a few people, or too many people.

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s t a r m | s t July 25th, 2004

My japanese name is ?? Akimoto (autumn book) ??? Kumiko (eternal beautiful child).

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Strange, and I thought my name has something to do with snow and bells.

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