Archive for June, 2007

Brother Dear

s t a r m | s t June 3rd, 2007

For some secret reason[s] she wouldn’t devulge, Meimei asked for some photographs of me, which led me to look through some past photos.

There is one person’s face that stood out. One person’s presence I really miss.

As far as I can remember, he is the only guy ever whom I can be so, so close to and yet feel totally comfortable and safe with [comfortable = mutual platonic relationship, can talk about any topic. safe = non-threatening - space-wise, words-wise, presence-wise, and both of us not being attracted to each other as anything more than friends].


The first photo taken. Why does my eyes look so weird.

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Intensity

s t a r m | s t June 2nd, 2007

Sad dreams.

Then I woke, I saw, and tears fell.

Allowed that moment of weakness, then pushed back all the feelings into the body. Patched it up haphazardly with innumerable plasters, locking the feelings in, so that nobody can see, not even me.

Let me be happy.. for him. Because he needs it.

When dawn comes, I will be a different person.. Again.

Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

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