plus qu’hier moins que demain

Feeling random. Too tired to think properly. Sometimes the mind is too much to take.

Random.
Gifts for my initial sins, which add on to the burden.

White wine and expensive chocolates. I rejected the offer of lunch, and then dinner, and then drinks. But when she stood in front of me, with the bag of gift, there was nothing I could have done or said anymore.

[Meimei, I am really afraid. Time is a-ticking, I feel closed in.]

Random.
RN’s Sunshine.

Have always preferred dogs to cats. I’m terrified of felines, esp when they jump on you or attempt to scratch or bite you. But Sunshine is soo cute. So laid-back and fuzzy and cute. I’m going to catnap her one day.

Random.

Deja vu from 6 years back. I didn’t do anything wrong. Put the blame where it lies. Then again, it is not the other one’s fault too. I think. Just.. leave me out of the venom. All the world’s a stage, and all the men and women merely players; they have their exits and their entrances.

Random.
A: What.
J: What?
A: What was that? That pause. It tells me something, though I’m not too sure what.
J: *shrug* No idea what you are talking about..
A: When you closed your eyes for that second too long, and slowed in your actions just now, what were you thinking?
J: Oh. That was.. you know. me thinking for a second, I quit.
A: Quit? Quit what?
J: Everything.

Random.
Haunted. Every day, every small little thing, every distantly related stuff, every night.

and more unspeakables.

s t a r m | s t June 28th, 2007

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