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s t a r m | s t June 30th, 2005

It’s amazing how some people can embellish and exaggerate the truth just to get people over the other side for the own gratification.

Feeling all disillusioned with people and volunteer work, I decided to meet up with some of my favourite people this evening for dinner and drinks (you guys are alcoholics! I’ve enough of alcohol).

The two silly fruits acting up when all I want to do is to take a good picture with them. I know, I know, I know I look horrible and fat.

A much better picture (though I still look fat).

A typical conversation with them goes something like this.

Attempting to traumatise Dom
Beebs: and my boyfriend…
Dom [interrupting]: You have a boyfriend??
Beebs: Yes, why?
Dom [confounded]: You have a boyfriend??? Since when?!!
Me: Let me tell you about him. He has red, disgusting curly hair..
Dom [giving the what-the-hell-is-going-on look]: What? Where did this guy pop [mimed comical popping action] up from???
Beebs: He likes to put on really whitish make up too.
Dom: What!!
Me: And he always dresses in bright yellow overalls…
Rei [turning to me]: Hey, don’t be jealous just because her boyfriend has red hair and yours has white hair.
Me [bewildered]: Eh?
Beebs: Ahh, yes! Your smiley guy with his big big specs who likes to fry chicken.
Me: Oh! Actually that’s not my boyfriend, he’s my sugar daddy. He’s quite old, you know.
Dom [finally traumatised]: You guys are all so wrong, you know, you guys are all so wrong.

Thanks, Dom, for the butterscotch schnapps!

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s t a r m | s t June 29th, 2005

I hate conflicts, I really do. Especially when they have nothing to do with me and yet people come to me and expect *snap fingers* solutions (or least, me to do something about it). O cursed spite, that I was born to set things right.

I guess conflicts within a group are inevitable; group dynamics and all that jazz. But still, things are being blown out of proportion, and they’ve only just begun.

If I react (with the intention of helping duh), the situation will get worse, I know it. The mind works in strange ways, and people often think the worst of others when they are, in fact, blind to their own faults. On the other hand, if I be passive and not do anything, it is as if I’m just sitting and watching a man get beaten up by gangsters simply because he - I don’t know - spat on the ground? There is no good way about it. There is no appropriate path to walk on. This sense of helplessness, I dislike it.

I supposed I could always say “??????????.” because ????????????.

But someone close to me is caught near in the eye of this storm, and I feel that this misunderstood person doesn’t deserve all those accusations, and the crap that is yet to come. And I’m not biased, I’m on neutral ground, really.

How good it would be if everyone just mind their own business and not be so antagonistic.

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s t a r m | s t June 26th, 2005

I’m just too bored I guess.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. cannot be revealed here
2. cannot be revealed here
3. cannot be revealed here

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. starm|st
2. angelmist
3. yuki - it means snow [in reference to my chinese name]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. hair
2. slimness
3. hands

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. bad skin
2. teeth
3. feet

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. chinese
2. canadian
3. whatever

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the way the world works
2. heartbreak
3. the unknown [including the supernatural]

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. face-wash
2. shampoo
3. tissue

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. my heart on my sleeve
2. bruises from a fall
3. tee-shirt [finally, a proper answer!]

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS: (for now)
1. take that!
2. s.e.n.s
3. nil

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (for now)
1. almost here by delta goodrem and brian mcfadden
2. love, me by colin raye
3. angels brought me here by guy sebastian

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. faithfulness
2. love - of course there gotta be this
3. open communication - honesty, openness and all that

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT YOU TAKE NOTE OF:
1. eyes
2. masculinity
3. can I cheat and say ‘voice’?

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. reading
2. thinking
3. song-signing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. be happy
2. be happy
3. sleep soundly

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. artist
2. lawyer
3. interior designer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. australia [I’m so vague]
2. the states [even more vague]
3. europe [still as vague]

THREE KID’S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. anything with ‘en’ eg: en-xi
2. guy names starting with ‘J’
3. gal names starting with ‘A’

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. travel around the world
2. tell my loved ones that I love them
3. I don’t know - get that white baby grand and the coverted yanagisawa alto?

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. the way I shop - have something in mind, find it, buy it, get all happy and satisfied.
2. interest in fast cars
3. nil

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. think and brood too much
2. too emotional
3. soft-spoken

THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1) hideaki takizawa
2) bae yong joon
3) david boreanaz

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s t a r m | s t June 26th, 2005

While finishing up the drinks after dinner

Dad: Let me give you a choice. If the bill’s below $100, you will treat us to this dinner. If it’s above $100, then I will treat.
Sister [giving the mad why-do-I-have-to-pay look]: Wha-aat!!??

Dad [feeling all magnanimous]: Alright, alright, nevermind. I’ll give you a second choice. How about.. you pay if it is above $100, ok?
Sister: No… I may have to end up paying much more then!

Dad [deadpan]: Ok lah, I’ll provide you with a third choice since I’m so nice. If it’s above $100, you pay. If it’s below, you pay.
Sister and I [in perfect unison]: That is not even a choice!

After a minute of calculating the odds
Sister [with loads of uncertainty in her weak, trembling voice]: I.. will… pay…. if it’s above $100……

When heading out of the restaurant
Sister whooped really loudly and jumped excitedly in front of a startled me, patting her chest in relief. I took a look at the bill.

$97.03.

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s t a r m | s t June 25th, 2005

Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly, because you tread on my dreams.

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s t a r m | s t June 24th, 2005

Almost the same, but not quite…
And that made all the difference.

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s t a r m | s t June 22nd, 2005

Most useful gift - Fancl products from Beebs, Yahwee and Juhua

Most.. interesting gift - from the SIM peeps

Most unexpected gift(s) - Bookmark and (already demolished) cheesecake from SADeaf’s Claud and EK respectively

Most thoughtful gift - What every girl should have on her birthday?

Am-I-such-a-compulsive-gambler gift - from Sister, ex/xtomic-ers and Le Petit Prince

Sweetest gift - My favourite flower from Laine and Rich

Dearest gift - from Mummy

Most sensitive gift - Artistry set from Rosie

Most cherished gift.
iPod remote, along with many intangible things, from he-who-shall-not-be-named.

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s t a r m | s t June 22nd, 2005

is what I want to do…

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s t a r m | s t June 21st, 2005

Lead me, save me
from my solitude and frustrations…

Giles: You mean life?
Buffy: Yeah. Does it get easy?
Giles: What do you want me to say?
Buffy: Lie to me.
Giles: Yes, it’s terribly simple. The good guys are always stalwart and true, the bad guys are easily distinguished by their pointy horns or black hats, and, uh, we always defeat them and save the day. No one ever get hurt, and everybody lives happily ever after.
Buffy: Liar.

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s t a r m | s t June 21st, 2005

How true is it?

Thinks far with vision[?] Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Have lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating. Tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke[?] Good debating skills[?] Talkative[?] Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends[?] Abiding. Able to show character[?] Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up[?] Easily bored. Fussy[?] Seldom shows emotions[?] Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious[?] Executive[?] Stubborn.

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