Cold
In the past, I’ve always favoured cold weathers over warm ones.
Because feeling cold was just… that. Cold. Cool cold, windy cold, wintery cold. Feeling the cool air teasing and brushing against my skin made me feel clean, happy and free.
Warm weathers were another matter. The heat, the humid still air, the wanting-to-melt-in-the-concrete feeling, the stickiness of the skin, the perspiration. All these just contributed to the ick factor.
In the past few months, I’ve woken up several times feeling extremely (abnormally?) cold. Mind-numbing cold. So cold that my skin felt like it would crack and shatter. So cold that my heart would tremble and shake within me. So cold that I felt as though my soul has been taken away from my body.
Coldness, I discovered, isn’t that good after all.
I long to feel the warmth once again.
Can I not feel so cold anymore?
- the core
s t a r m | s t February 11th, 2005
